The World After Betrayal

2024 Author: Harry Day | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 15:43

They don't expect him. It does not fit into the familiar and safe world that is trusted. It appears suddenly, like a stab in the back. At the moment of appearance, it deprives the ability to breathe, think, perceive reality, deprives of strength and support. And after a while - the ability to believe, love, trust. It seems to kill, but it does not kill the whole person, but only a part of him. The part that believed and loved, that wants to be there, that hopes. Which, like open shutters, is open towards the world. And then it - this part - slams shut and, like a wounded animal, begins to hide in far and dark corners, to hide from everyone. And the more there were stabs in the back, the further and deeper it hides in the subconscious, depriving a person of the ability to trust.

Another part comes to light, which does not trust anyone, which cynically assesses everyone in terms of benefits and convenience. Able to play any role just to get what you want, harboring resentment and anger for the time being. Who knows a lot about this world, but feels nothing. And if he does, he will never show what it is. The one who does not want to know that there is suffering and pain, closes her eyes and shut her mouths, turns her attention to something else. Who perceives the world as a battlefield, where one task is to survive, by all means, at any cost, by any sacrifice.

A close relationship, a friend's trust, love can be sacrificed. Children's and youthful dreams. Projects that make the heart beat faster, the world is getting better, but they are not prestigious. Desires that do not fit into the picture called "ideal world".

With each victim, the wounded part goes further and further, hiding already from the person himself, not getting the opportunity to be in his life. Hiding from his cruelty, with which he does not want to hear and feel her faint call from within. From self-punishment for any slightest blunders and mistakes, for any manifestation of weakness. From betrayal in relation to himself, which the person picked up, like a baton and carried …

In the end, a person achieves that the world around him becomes ideal. Without excessive drama and ugly emotions, built on his rules, without attachments - just contracts with convenient or profitable people. The correct world in which everything has its own name and lies in its place.

But one day, someone's sincere laughter or a warm sympathetic look can break through into this correct, closed, barred world, against the background of which it becomes clear how cold and lonely, in fact, this ideal world is. And that deep inside there is someone who is in dire need of warmth, sincerity, trust and love, no matter what.

And such a moment can be the first step towards healing your injury and the first step towards regaining the ability to trust.

It may or may not be. Everyone chooses for himself in which world to live.