And Then The Top Stopped

2024 Author: Harry Day | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 15:43

Continuing the unfinished conversation about the film "Volchok".

Yes, a dark story with this girl, only the director's thought did not stop there, but took, on the one hand, global dimensions, and on the other, a completely natural and frequent turn. I mean the mother’s persistent desire to run away. The mistress of all this "carrion" has a conflict between internal objects. The picture unobtrusively shows the woman's desire to accept her little girl, to revive the lost part of herself. Probably, this is why she is trying to communicate with her, to evoke living feelings in her, and for this she says so thoughtfully: "No, I can't …" when she bumps into a wall "even". Tonatos turns out to be stronger, causing a response: "I want to live, to live …" from the mother's lips. And Mom runs away again and again, escaping the terrifying and consuming action of the little girl inside. This running makes you lead a riotous lifestyle and use aggressive behavior as a confirmation of your femininity, if not even liveliness. If the death girl catches up, then the end. But, it is impossible to get rid of her, you cannot kill her a second time, you cannot appease her - and life turns into a movement in a circle, into a run without end and without beginning, where there is no way to stop.

The story ends scary. Again the mother runs away, the child catches up. And at the moment when, it would seem, the escape had an effect and the woman broke away from the chase, the creak of the brakes and the impact of the body on the car are heard. We do not know whether this was the girl's decision or an annoying accident, we only see that the camera, after some wandering, went in one direction, and the main character in the other, the objects became vague and losing their distinctive features. "You will not leave!" With the death of the inner little girl, freedom did not come. Her image was integrating, keeping from decay. Now there is an all-encompassing state of disorganization, or even the disappearance of everything. Now there is no one at all, emptiness and chaos, which plunge into their timelessness of pre-object existence.

This brings to mind some customer stories that, with striking similarities, repeat the same pain in a new way. Here is the story of one girl whose life fell apart when her mother, a drug addict diagnosed with schizophrenia, died. The daughter felt in the place of her mother, when she sat in the corner and swayed regularly. And when she was high, was unable to remove the syringe from the vein, the girl ached with her pain. When the mother died, they died together in the inner space of the girl, were destroyed irrevocably. An escape began, like in a horror movie, from pursuing zombies and vampires, but in fact, from dead objects. This run has acquired a banal direction: alcohol, drugs, aggression. Only in this case, they caught up with her, simultaneously with representatives of the psychiatric service, while trying to commit suicide.

The events of another girl are striking in similarity. The teenager brought to the meeting with me a huge baggage of all kinds of addictions and an uncontrollable desire to attack when establishing any contact. The fox, as everyone called her, was found by kind people in the forest. The father took the body of the murdered mother and the still alive girl to the forest and left there. The baby was accepted into their family by local residents - a family of foxes. After a lot of work, Fox told me that she had been dead for a long time, and she died then, together with her mother, and now both of them are dead inside her. Of course, this version interested narrow specialists who hastened to relieve the girl of such a terrible burden, and the psychotic state was not long in coming. The little fox began to recover only after, in a therapy situation, she was allowed to return the seized internal objects to their rightful places. It was then that the process of reviving them began.

Thus, mental trauma has many features that contribute to the unique organization of mental space. Some of them are presented in the film "Spinning Top" by Vasily Sigarev. In this story, we can observe the dynamics of unconscious trauma, when the mother left the grandmother with a newborn daughter and the rebirth of the conscious one, when the mother gradually leaves the child's life, taking away all the best from her, sucking life. In addition, the process of formation of defense mechanisms of various qualities and actions is visible, endless acting out and an extremely gloomy transitional object - a top, contributing to numerous identifications.

And yet, if you think about it, the film is more like a production of a novel about the life of internal objects and the fantasy of getting rid of suffering. But, this is just my subjective opinion based on personal fantasies and personal experience.