LETTER TO YOU. Read It

2024 Author: Harry Day | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 15:43

I don't know at all what to do with you … Every time I stop you when you go in the wrong direction, but you persistently continue to look in the wrong direction, think about the wrong thing, strive for where you do not need to be.

Why are you doing this? Because someone once told you that where you are trying to get, you will be fine. That there is something beautiful waiting for you. That if you are in the cherished THERE, then you will be good, which means that you can be loved.

You with enviable persistence create the life that you have been visited, but which is not a reflection of you. In the life that you are building, you do not reveal your essence. You live the way you were taught to live, which is the right way. But that is not your nature.

And I'm tired of watching you pull an owl onto a globe, how you try to enclose squares in round shapes, how you spiritually emasculate yourself every day in order to squeeze yourself into a template once drawn by someone.

And I tell you STOP! Enough! I take away your strength so that you do not waste your life energy in vain. I paralyze you so that you stop in the stream of life that has consumed you. In this life there is a certain character, a character drawn by someone, an actor whose script was written by others, but not you. And I can't look at it anymore. You are losing the essence of yourself. And so it can no longer continue.

You are resisting. After all, you do not know how to live otherwise. You don’t know how to do it any other way. I understand. I'm sorry. My task is to create a pause for you so that you look at how you live - from the "top" position. I'll give you time out whether you like it or not. Or rather, I know you won't like it, but there is nothing you can do about it. I will stop you, I will not let you move on. And you have a choice: continue to resist, fight with me, or stop and be with yourself. You can heroically defend the old way of life (but I just won't let you go) or you will finally start to feel yourself. Sounds like an ultimatum, like choice without choice. Just remember that I am doing this for you, for you.

Stop and start feeling yourself, touch yourself. Forget everything that anyone has ever told you about how it is right and necessary. Feel how good it is FOR YOU. Hear your own voice, it’s a timid whisper that knows exactly how natural it is to you. Freeze, stop your thoughts, which rumble like a song ensemble at a provincial holiday.

I will let you go, I will untie your hands, I will remove the fetters from your feet. But only when you hear yourself, when you start serving yourself and not other people. I will let you go after waking up, after the hassle in which you have been all this time. I will gladly return all your strength to you when you understand where to move on. Where YOU want and how YOU want. When you see, you realize WHO YOU ARE.

With love and care for you, your Depression."