2024 Author: Harry Day | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 15:43
Svetlana was driving along a road with a pine forest on both sides. She stopped the car and got out.
Walking into the depths of the forest and admiring its grandeur, admiring the sounds that he made, she felt excited. Svetlana looked at the forest and understood how majestic Nature is. It is so perfect that it does not need to be adjusted. She is magical. It creates itself, transforms itself. Nature does not need someone's help, she does an excellent job on her own.
So Svetlana, she wanted to cope on her own. She studied and learned a lot of interesting things. This was the knowledge of other people, and she developed through them. Now she wanted her own self-creation on the basis of the training she received.
Realizing that she had her own life experience, through which she passed information, a completely new knowledge appeared. This knowledge is distorted from the initial form, but comprehended by Svetlana in her own way.
This became her personal knowledge. It could be similar to the original original, but still different. When she talks about him, it will sound different.
For her, it was like a natural movement of nature, which creates, removing unnecessary, or transforms into a new one. It changes through its existence, creating something new arbitrarily and without purpose. Nature, or, one might say, the Earth lives, moves, without setting the task of becoming better, more promising. There is no need for it to be - it already exists. She is free, she is in herself. Without the idea of creating something beautiful, she is already beautiful. And she doesn't need anyone to confirm this.
Only a person finds flaws in it, tries to improve for himself. He squeezes resources out of it and sells to another, as if they belong to him, and he can use them for his own purposes. She was outraged by this, although she herself used those resources. She felt hypocritical, she was ashamed.
Svetlana was fascinated by the natural creation of the Earth. How she would like to live like this - without evaluations of others and attempts to please someone. But what prevents her from moving in the natural way of self-creation? Who claims its physical and intellectual resources? How from the Earth, which feels good without human participation, who improved her, Svetlana? Who was involved in who she became, and what is she striving for now?
Have you gone too far? After all, now she looks with envy at Nature, which does not need anyone for its own course. The earth does not care about someone else's opinion on how to live correctly. She ignores any demand for accountability and offers to move where the person suggests to her. She has no need to make excuses for how she wasted time (even in front of herself). She will not check her location in life with the coordinates given by people.
Svetlana understood that this is how the Earth lives, she will not live. Of course, she could plunge into madness, believing that she was creating herself. But then she needs to accept the rule - people like her must live separately, isolated from other people. The Earth has no rules - its movement is due to being in the solar system among other planets. Not fast or slow, but at your own speed.
At that moment, Svetlana realized that she can develop at the speed that is acceptable to her. Create with your resources and value what you do. To live without obligation in front of others, to listen to your own opinion.
“I wonder if this is possible? - asked Svetlana. - I have lived for so many years, relying on what others offer, listening to their opinion about me …"
From SW. gestalt therapist
Dmitry Lenngren
