2024 Author: Harry Day | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 15:43
The condition of employment in one commercial bank was an interview with a psychologist. In order not to be a surprise for me, I was warned by phone that the interview included polygraph testing. Note that I am opposed to such checks, I believe that this method violates the boundaries of the individual, because The system of constructing questions initially implies that individuals who are inadequate, problematic, morally unstable, antisocial, etc. come to the interview, and you can list them endlessly.
So that's it. I will continue. It was an exception to my rule, but I agreed to come to this interview, I needed a job. I thought, "Well, what am I missing, these are just questions." By the way, no one asked my consent to participate in psychological testing, no one promised the secrets of the results obtained, as you understand these are their conditions, and you either accept them or not.
And then the day came, I came for an interview with a psychologist (I will call this guy a PSYCHOLOGIST, regardless of his level of knowledge and qualifications). In the office sat a faceless, with an unpleasant appearance, fish eyes, eyebrows and eyelashes, no man after 40 years old. This was the so-called psychologist, but not the psychologist who talks with people, relies on ethical norms and values, owns diagnostic tools, skills to be able to determine what kind of person is in front of him, what protections she uses in communication, etc …
He was a completely different person, the first thing that came to mind at the sight of him was that “what a typical familiar character, I have already seen such people somewhere, perhaps in films …
Exactly, an employee of the NKVD. " In short, as you may have guessed, a typical FSB man sat in front of me, withdrawn, taciturn (apart from standard phrases and questions about my candidacy), suspicious (at least, he looked so), who is called upon to defend the borders of his state by all lies, seeing in all the newly arrived spies, bandits, drug addicts, degraded personalities, thieves, in short, a threat. For all my seemingly indifference and indifference, anxiety began to manifest itself. Then there were test questions for multiplication, division, determination of the probability of a collision of three flies that flew into a ten-meter room, knowledge of Armenian wind instruments, knowledge of the largest American banks, etc. I prioritized geometric shapes (square, triangle, circle, zigzag, rectangle) so that a potential employer could identify my "true" destiny - a workhorse, a soulless leader, philanthropist, artist, or eternally dissatisfied.
The last test task was the Luscher color test, which, as we know, is used to study the current state of a personality, and not its properties. Now I come to the most important thing. Here it is, the moment of meeting with the polygraph! Began. Anxiety again made itself felt. My thoughts began to replace each other very quickly. The head was heavy, the pressure on the eyes increased, the anger rose in earnest. I felt that my body refused any experiments, it signaled to me in every possible way “I don’t want to,” “Get out of here,” “We don’t need this,” “This is wrong,” “Will you ever start listening to me?” I set myself up not to forget about my breathing, i.e. feel, keep in touch with yourself, because I understood that in a state of anxiety I stop breathing, become like a pillar of salt. I unrolled the chair so that it was facing the wall.
I ask the "psychologist": "What level of anxiety should the subject have?" What he meant, I think, he himself did not know. He began to bandage me with all sorts of ropes with sensors: he put a necklace on his belt, rings on his fingers, attached everything somewhere, sat down and started asking questions. The questions were all about drugs, alcoholism, theft, scandals, a psychiatrist, in the variations “have you ever, somewhere used, injected, wallowed, violated, you or your relatives served, abused”, and again all over again “you did one, in front of everyone, at work, from work … "," have you addressed, have you ever visited a psychiatrist "and again all the same …. Only three questions were neutral: month, day, whether I ate today. On the one hand, seemingly ordinary questions, answer them "no" or "yes", and nothing else is required of you. But my body was raging, my voice became quieter, the phrase "violence of my own free will" came to my mind. God! Why do I expose myself so, and to hell with all these employers, idiots, perverts, pseudopsychologists! At some point I wanted to move, I was tired, suddenly the voice of a psychologist says: "You can't move, sit up straight." I thought, well, the detector recorded some changes, for sure that I'm not telling the truth. I wanted to swallow, I thought that it was also impossible, I endured it. And the body screamed “I am alive!” “My processes are going on!”, “Don't force me!”, Thoughts rushed, and then I noticed (Oh, Horror!), I stopped breathing !!! How afraid I was of that! How long have I been breathing ?! That's why I wanted to move so badly, I wanted to swallow. It was stress, the real one, which I arranged for myself. Everything!
The test was over, the guides were removed from me, I laid out the Luscher colors again. She got up, took her bag, dressed and went. God! I have no strength, I am slowly trudging down the street to the metro, my energy is low, I look like a person without a smile from the old film-fairy tale "Sold Laughter" (the main character was played by the actor Pavel Kadochnikov).
Exactly SOLD! After all, I sell myself for money!
I'm going to various abominations! The body screams "Don't go, don't!" And thoughts knock: I am not the first, I am not the last, who passes this polygraph, that there is such and such.
Well, why is it so bad?
In the soul, in the body, in the head, in the eyes, in the legs, EVERYWHERE …
Why?
Is it just with me or are other people also experiencing something similar?
I also thought about this psychologist, how did I get a job, she would not work out, and even defend her candidate, because so many subjects come. Usually psychologists find it difficult to find subjects, but here sit and train, fix and fantasize. On the other hand (I suddenly thought about it), to give your competent opinion about this or that candidate without using various things is still responsible, this is the lot of professionals. And responsibility in our society is getting worse and worse.
And then there are tests and a polygraph, there is something to refer to if the employee turns out to be not what the detector depicted him as. Not everyone can and should go through a lie detector (I do not consider the restrictions that are presented in official sources), tk. some people may feel overwhelming guilt or shame about something they did or thought to do, for some actions that happened in childhood (for example, they misappropriated someone's toy, got into a fight, stole an eraser from someone at school). then, he deceived the teacher, in the first grade he dabbled in smoking and was caught, etc.), and their parents punished them for this, perhaps very severely, with accusations of something terrible, with a belt, not separating behavior and personality, settling a strong fear in the child's body, instead of explanations (it is clear that from the best educational motives, but so that the child remembers once and for all). Or, wishing someone close to die, and that person suddenly dies, then the child may consider himself a criminal.
Growing up, a person will bring this trauma (unconsciously) into adulthood, including all the accompanying set of guilt, shame and fear. Finding himself in similar situations, being only a witness in some events or bystanders, this person will be afraid that all charges will fall on him. And since a certain memory of the event is inherent in the brain, then with the help of certain questions and situations, one gets into a traumatic event. And during polygraph testing, images, events, phenomena stored in memory can be updated with the help of questions and emerge in the form of a person's reaction. By the way, antisocial personalities will go through the detector "with a bang". are incapable of feeling guilty, have a tendency to blame others or put forward plausible explanations for their misconduct or immoral behavior that lead to conflicts with society.
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