2024 Author: Harry Day | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 15:43
The main duality of our life, in my opinion, is the opposition of life and death to each other, while these two entities are in continuous dynamic interaction, complementing each other. Life and death, living and dead, resurrection and dying, day and night, light and shadow, we are somehow constantly in the change of these two poles opposite to each other. Right now, reading this, processes of decay and synthesis are going on in your body, the death of some cells and the birth of others, we are real and metaphorically both alive and dead at the same time, the only difference is in the dominance of one of the processes (but we know who will eventually gain victory).
Problems begin when we are unable to accept the fact that one of the processes dominates against our will (well … as it were ours) and we, in our attempts to establish control over the process, situation, circumstances, etc., etc. a phase of uncontrolled immersion in this process, which we are trying to control. We fall down the rabbit hole holding a carrot in our hands and imagining that it is a rabbit coming to visit us, and we beckon him with a carrot. This is really strange, because it seems to us quite realistically that we keep everything under control, we have established connections, we have settled issues, we have reached the heights, we are the most, the most, the most, and here we hit the bottom of our unconscious very hard and catch our complexes and injuries that rushed out of the enclosure in bulk.
Life and death balance us. You need to feel them in yourself, you should listen to them, you can pay attention to them, because they are us, only in dynamics, like the wave function of an electron. If there is an advantage in one direction, it will still lead to death. And it's terrifyingly scary. And we want to fight this, fight, run away from her, shoot her, pay off her, deceive her, but no, it's just us, and everything we do, we do it with ourselves. We drown ourselves in a sea of oblivion of alcohol, increase decomposition by playing sports, exhaust ourselves with diets, inflate and explode ourselves like a balloon by overeating, we ruin ourselves, really ruin ourselves, thinking that we are saving. And it's terrifyingly scary. And there is no time to stop and feel how the processes flow through us, how time seeps through our skin, how our minds are permeated by thoughts from a distant unknown death.
In Ancient Egypt there was a God Ra and a God Osiris. The eternally dying and eternally reborn God Osiris symbolizes duality, and the God Ra, eternally shining and blessing for rebirth, is our spirit, our life force in dying. This moment is very important, because it demonstrates to us a certain archetypal meaning of dying, namely, that by dying we are reborn, but in order to be reborn we need to die. It's extremely simple, but … terrifyingly scary. And where these processes go unconsciously, for example, in hair loss or in the death of the upper layer of our skin, everything is fine there, and as soon as we begin to realize the fact that we are dying at a given moment, it plunges us into a state of mighty panic. and fear, preventing us from being reborn again. And then all we do is resist our rebirth by dying for an infinitely long time.
